I often find difficulty braiding more "pleasant" words. I don't know if it is because I have a trauma background from a very early age and have struggled with brain health my whole life, but joyful, inspiring words are "work" for me. The darker, disturbing passages just come to me, almost like gifts..akin of blessing. I barely even give thought, I just funnel them to page and they create themselves. Do you feel getting healthy changes your writing/artistry?
I don’t worry because I have plenty of crappy memories to get me by😊
Absolutely agree with this. I'm a big believer in the Buddhist mantra that suffering leads to enlightenment. Often, periods of happiness or extreme comfort bring us nothing creatively. Yet, a night sleeping on the streets could bring a wealth of ideas and inspiration. It's how we use our dark thoughts and moments though. Some people, especially non poets or artists, struggle to channel it this way, and as a result there is often no release ❤️
I also have had a trauma background. It is far easier for me to write dark poetry than light happy stuff. I think that the things I have gone through in my life have shaped who I am today and of course shaped my creativity.